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07.11.18
Just uuuuh some late night personal motivation
Happiness
I’m really happy at the moment :)
I haven’t eaten since Tuesday night (its Friday just after noon) and feel great, I’ve lost a really good amount of weight, I’ve been productive today, was told I sound like a local, AND got an appointment and plan for my tattoo!
Problem is though that you have to eat before you get a tattoo, especially if it’s kinda large. I’m not getting it done until Tuesday, but I feel like if I let myself break my fast, I’ll never stop eating
Ohmygod I just fucking binged. 3 days of no food, I allow myself to eat, and boom. 1,500 calories later, I hate myself. I have never been able to purge and I feel so gross right now and bloated, I can’t bring myself to work out.
I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH
This is why I don’t allow myself to eat! Ugh I’m so stupid
If I can do it, so can you.
Beat my urge to break my liquid fast and binge earlier by chugging a shit load of water, having some green tea with a little sugar, and napping.
Don’t give in. You have a goal.
I just remembered I have lost over 2 stone already. Why do I feel so unaccomplished?
Hah 😅 tfw your friend is telling you about how she was trying on kid’s jeans and they fit and you’re just sitting here in your size 18 jeans trying to be happy for her
Wow I didn’t plan on being the fucked up cousin but whoomp here I am
(Disclaimer: I periodically struggle to tell what’s real and what’s not)
Do you ever just… Doubt what your scale is telling you? Doubt that the progress you see and feel? Doubt that everything you’ve been doing is real, unsure if that’s what you *should* be doing or if you’re even working so hard?
Fun shit, huh
Just trans things
When your binder fits better or looser and your body dysmorphia chills out for a sec
If this scale is right,
I’ve managed to lose about 11 lbs in just about 10 days. For usually being a stagnant or increasing weight, I’d say that’s pretty good!